Being fat has always been one of my biggest challenges in life. I can’t even count the number of times I’ve been told “Tumaba ka!” (“You got fat!”). My worst year in terms of weight was 2011. I would go to the bank or to a party and people would ask if I was pregnant. So yeah, you’d think years later, what’s an off-handed “Tumaba ka!” remark or two… or three, right? Look, I know I’m fat. It doesn’t help that I’m surrounded by svelte, beautiful, and fashionable fitness enthusiasts I call my friends a lot of the time.
At least these days no one is asking when I’m due and I can still fit into regular clothes (not plus size or maternity). I’ve learned to look at the bright side and think hey at least I’m not ugly. Excess weight can be lost but being unhappy with your face is forever (unless you get plastic surgery). Of course none of that changes the fact that I’m still fat.
Here’s a throwback pic from 2011. I think I weighed 160+ lbs here, even heavier than my 158 lbs on my ninth month of pregnancy with my firstborn. Can’t really blame people for thinking I was pregnant.
I’m not happy where I am now weight-wise. I haven’t stepped on a scale in years because I’m in denial. In my estimation, I’m probably 140+ lbs now… maybe even 150. I am reminded of this sad reality whenever there’s a formal occasion. In this case, my younger brother’s upcoming wedding this October. Everyone’s going to wear either a formal gown or dress. In my current state, I just can’t. My body and weight issues have kept me in pants all my life.
I’ve been there, done that. Let me tell you straight out that exercising till you collapse won’t help unless you count your calories. That’s really where it’s at. Let me recap some of the weight loss methods I’ve tried in the past:
- All Work No Diet – For one whole month, I went to Gold’s Gym 4-5x a week and spent 1.5 to 2 hrs exercising. I thought surely if I worked out this much I’d lose weight even if I ate the same way. Wrong. I lost barely 2 lbs after a month of doing this.
- All Marie France and No Diet – Marie France’s tagline says No Diet, No Exercise. The No Exercise part is true. When you enroll at MF, a nutritionist is assigned to you and you have to follow their calorie recommendation in order to attain your ideal weight. Last I checked counting calories counts as dieting. Let’s just say if you rely on their machines and treatments and do not follow the nutritionist you don’t lose any weight. To be fair though, you don’t gain weight either so their machines and treatments do actually help keep the weight off. I think it would be more accurate to say that enrolling at MF would make you lose excess weight faster.
- All Diet and Nothing Else – Sad to say, this is the most effective way to lose weight. I stuck to the 1200 calories a day and lost weight even if I didn’t exercise or go to MF.
So last night, I surfed the web for a reasonably priced diet delivery service. I stumbled on this blog post and decided to go for Dear Diet Delivery. They had a promo ongoing wherein I’d get complete meals for a month (5 days a week) for P6,480. That’s P324 a day. Not bad. The starting date was August 29 (that’s today!). I was so surprised when they delivered 5:30am this morning because I hadn’t paid yet. I walked to BDO first thing when I got to the office so I could settle the fee.
Today I had one piece of French Toast for breakfast and coffee. I had a small Calamansi Poppy Seed Muffin as a mid-morning snack. For lunch I had a tiny portion of Brown Rice and Chicken, which incidentally had a lot of bones so I ate maybe 2 matchbox stick portions of chicken. Everything tasted okay. I’m kind of hungry right after eating my tiny lunch but I’m determined to stick to this. The goal is to fit into a decent formal RTW dress for my brother’s wedding. I’ll even try to throw in 30 mins of cardio every day for good measure (hopefully I’m not too weak from hunger lol).
At least I have cheat weekends… although I know I shouldn’t overdo it.
I’m FAT and I know it. I don’t need people to tell me because I see it every single day. I’m doing something about it starting now.
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Grabe. Mamamatay ako sa gutom with a piece of French toast. I am also in the 1,200 calorie phase again but it’s because my digestive system is suffering. I need to clear my stomach again. Pero di ko kaya piece of French toast and coffee huhu.
In fairness makapal yun tinapay (parang 1 pc na thick bread from Bread Talk) tapos may blueberry preserves. But yeah I’m hungry now I keep drinking the detox water they enclosed na may lemon and cucumber slices… cr ako ng cr wahahahaha. XD
I went to the gym for a year with no diet and noticed little change lang. Then I tried getting rid of soda + exercise, in just 2 months ang bilis ng weight loss. So tama si Derek, 80% diet, 20% exercise lang talaga :p. Sana may makarating na diet delivery sa Cavite.
Kasi papayat ka talaga pag nagbawas ka ng pagkain but not if exercise lang.
Last time I went to my internist, we found out mataas ang cholesterol ko and i have fatty liver. To think nasa 120-125 lang weight ko ha. Nasa lahi kasi namin. I eat a lot of rice. Kaya ko ng 3x a day mag rice, na hindi lang 1 cup per meal. Malakas rin ako sa bread. Now, I started to cut down on my rice intake, lalo na sa gabi. I find small frequent meals effective, pero yung in between fruits or nuts. A friend said pumayat ako, maybe because matagal kami di nagkita.
Tama ang sabi nila eh, you are what you eat. Nakakatamad naman kasi mag-exercise mag-isa.
Good luck on your weight-loss journey again. And I like “at least Im not ugly”. Sobrang hanga nga ako actually sa skin mo.
Thank you!
I had a liver test a couple of years ago and the results were normal naman. Ang na sa lahi namin is high blood sugar so I really have to watch it with the desserts. Kind of hard because I love desserts huhu.
Hi! I feel you ! I was stick thin when i was young and had to take appetite stimulants to gain weight. When i got married at 30 yrs old some 21 yrs ago i weighed 110 lbs my height is 5’4″” …when i got pregnant i ballooned to 150lbs!! I lost some of the weight but i noticed only some 3 yrs ago ive been steadily gaining weight needless to say i havent been really watching my food intake , i’d binge on chips and chocolate most nights and just pretty much ate everything i wanted :((( my clothes didnt fit and ugh it was just terrible and i dont exercise :(( anyways a cousin who is 51 yo came home from singapore and looked the same as when we were young she said she follows the 80% diet 20% exercise principle plus she’s been taking herbalife….ok just a disclaimer im not with herbalife im just a user so i dont sell it hehe her body weight Is that of a 31 yo…..wow!! When she went back to Singapore she encouraged me and some cousins to a 10 day challemge following the 80-20 principle no herbalife here yet just food intake… so we would send her pics of food we were taking mostly for me salad, boiled egg and a piece on f toast…sometimes a piece of baked chicken…and apples and nuts in between…..of course u can cheat bit thats cheating yourself so for 10 days we cousins tried to follow the diet….after 10 days everyone lost weight from 4.5lbs to me 7.8 lbs!!! Haha i won!! We started the 10 day challenge on aug 30 and now to help lose more weight i still follow the 80-20 principle but i take herbalife shakes the best thing is it tastes good..and im lazy to prepare food…. i was 146 when we started and ended with 138.2 lbs my goal is to be 125 lbs!! Hopefully befre the year ends :)) thx for all your updates I enjoy reading your blog